Sunday, June 7, 2009

Inspired.

So I was just reading this girl's blog, where there was a video of one of my ex-colleague's boyfriend finishing up the 84km adidas sundown ultra marathon. 

All through his race she was there, right behind him, on her bike.

She came here with him from Germany awhile back, and just watching her follow him on her bike is truly inspirational. 

You can practically feel the love emanating from the video - and I'm sure they're going to have their happily ever after.

Anyway, they've definitely inspired me. 

10km adidas sundown marathon - done !

next up - 21km Safra Bay Run in August.

Time to start training again.

"pain is temporary, quitting is forever" - so she quotes.  

Totally.

You know why I started getting excited about taking part in marathons ? Because it was something that I could be proud of. My work (long hours, measly pay) often makes me question my choices, and I can't escape the feeling that I've come so far, only to be so mediocre in life. 

But when I take part in marathons (granted it's only been two), there's a sense of achievement and satisfaction - something that I don't often derive from other aspects of my life. 

Pushing through that feeling when I'm halfway through a run thinking about giving up, and knowing that I'm going to finish this no matter how long it takes is an incredible feeling. 

And just like that, it makes me feel like maybe I'm not such a complete failure in life.

Maybe I should have studied harder back in school, and maybe I should have selected a different major in uni, and maybe I should have pursued a different career path, I don't know, but all I know is that inertia is keeping me from trying something different. As much as I think my job isn't all that satisfying, I know I'd also hate the feeling of switching careers and having to start from the bottom all over again. And I'd hate even more, the feeling of knowing that I never even got very far in this career before giving up.